Been A While

It’s been almost 2 months since I last made an entry.  It’s not that I’ve been too busy, or couldn’t come up with something to talk about, but rather I’ve sort of turned on myself more than ever. It’s been a struggle to not let my depression affect my wife and kids. That has been my main goal as of late. 

Nevertheless, I’ve been at the gym quite a bit (both BJJ and fitness center).  Let’s see, where to start…  Well I’m fat as shit. I haven’t had the will power to stop eating. It takes every ounce of my being to workout hard enough so I don’t end up on “My 600lbs Life”. I started a new exercise routine that has a lot of heavy lifting. Mixing it up with high intensity cardio had been pretty good.  I can honestly say that my muscles are completely spent by the time my 90min is up.  The first week I was sore as fuck. That’s to be expected though. For the last year or two, my workouts have been of a lighter weight, more reps in nature.

On the mats quite a bit has happened.  Let’s see…  I’ve been attending more classes. Or at least as many as I can. I’ve been to a seminar with world champion Jaoa Assis. That was great. I learned so much, and I’ve already successfully implemented it in to my gi game. A couple of weeks ago I got the 4th stripe on my blue belt.  That’s exciting, right?  I don’t k ow if I deserve it, but it happened. Rolling has been pretty good. I seem to be moving a bit better.  I wish my bottom game would improve. I try so hard down there, but always seem to get stuck. Oh well, I’ll keep plugging away.  I’m sort of thinking about competing again… We’ll see…

Oh ya, a Whistler trip has been booked for early January. I hope to go. 🙂

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Why should you work a season?

It was the best time in my life. All I think about is going back and doing it again.


The answer is simple…. you will have THE best time of your life, no doubts about it. If that isn’t enough to persuade you then here’s a comprehensive list of short and snappy reasons why a winter season is for everyone:

  1. There is no age limit on a season, most will assume that a chalet job is suited to the 18 year old gap student (like myself) but you will be surprised how many 40, 50, 60 years olds take up doing seasons. The chef in my chalet was actually 45 on unpaid leave from her job just to get out of London for the winter.
  2. You meet friends for life. Sharing a room, working together, skiing together, drinking together and doing everything in between together and you you make it to the end of the season without murdering each other? There’s definitely a strong bond there.
  3. Networking, within…

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What If Money Was No Object?

Alan Watts quote…

“What do you desire? What makes you itch? What sort of a situation would you like?

Let’s suppose, I do this often in vocational guidance of students, they come to me and say, well, we’re getting out of college and we have the faintest idea what we want to do. So I always ask the question, what would you like to do if money were no object? How would you really enjoy spending your life?

Well, it’s so amazing as a result of our kind of educational system, crowds of students say well, we’d like to be painters, we’d like to be poets, we’d like to be writers, but as everybody knows you can’t earn any money that way. Or another person says well, I’d like to live an out-of-doors life and ride horses. I said you want to teach in a riding school? Let’s go through with it. What do you want to do?

When we finally got down to something, which the individual says he really wants to do, I will say to him, you do that and forget the money, because, if you say that getting the money is the most important thing, you will spend your life completely wasting your time. You’ll be doing things you don’t like doing in order to go on living, that is to go on doing things you don’t like doing, which is stupid. Better to have a short life that is full of what you like doing than a long life spent in a miserable way.

And after all, if you do really like what you’re doing, it doesn’t matter what it is, you can eventually turn it – you could eventually become a master of it. It’s the only way to become a master of something, to be really with it. And then you’ll be able to get a good fee for whatever it is. So don’t worry too much. That’s everybody is – somebody is interested in everything, anything you can be interested in, you will find others will. But it’s absolutely stupid to spend your time doing things you don’t like, in order to go on spending things you don’t like, doing things you don’t like and to teach our children to follow in the same track.

See what we are doing, is we’re bringing up children and educating to live the same sort of lifes we are living. In order that they may justify themselves and find satisfaction in life by bringing up their children to bring up their children to do the same thing, so it’s all retch, and no vomit it never gets there. And so, therefore, it’s so important to consider this question,

What do I desire?”

Injured Hip Flexor and Motivation Gone to Shit

My motivation is at an all time low.  I am depressed as a muthafuker.  I feel so sad.  I can’t break free.  My current weight is the highest it’s been in close to 10 years.  My back fat is flopping about like crazy.  I’ve only managed to convince myself to go to BJJ 2 times in the last 3 weeks.  I went on Monday and injured my hip flexor somehow.  It hurts like a son-of-a-bitch.  I still go to the gym almost every day, but the workouts are forced.  I can’t wait to get out of there.  All the fun is gone.  I just want to stay in bed…

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